...are unanswered prayers. That has to be one of my favorite songs (Garth Brooks) because it's so true. It's so easy to sit here and pray for the things we want and the things we think we need. It's so easy to think things need to happen on our timeline and it's so easy to get upset when they don't.
Recently, my husband had an amazing job opportunity. It would have been a big jump in salary which would have been such a blessing...but it would have meant a good bit of travel. He didn't get the job and I'll admit, I was pretty upset with God about it. I didn't understand why He didn't allow my husband to get that job. (Talk about the wrong attitude. Who am I to question God's plan and His will???)
Over the past few weeks (I guess it's been longer than that...maybe almost 2 months) I've kinda gotten over it and just accepted it. I wasn't really 'at peace' with it but wasn't upset anymore. These past few days my husband has been sick...leaving me to care for Kenley, our 3 boys (the dogs) and him. May not sound like a lot...but it's been a tall order. It's been rainy so that means the boys get hyper and antsy...and with them ranging from 55lbs to over 100lbs...that's a lot of energy in a house with a toddler.
It finally hit me today...how in the world would I have handled him being gone 2-4 days a week??? How would I have done that with a second baby? (we're not pregnant...just thinking down the road) I'm sure I would have adjusted...but what a strain it could have put on our marriage and my relationship with Kenley. I felt so ashamed for questioning God and even worse for being angry with Him. He so knew that Jonathan didn't need to be traveling. He knew I needed him here.
So...even though I've known some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers, He showed me yet again how He is right and His timing is perfect. May not fit in with what I want...but it's what I need. I'm so glad He is so patient with me...it can't be an easy thing to do! Haha
3 comments:
God really does work in mysterious ways, even when we think WE know what is best for us! I know exactly how you feel. I miss you so much and am praying for you!!! Let's talk soon! I will try to call today. Lots to catch up on :)
Isn't it amazing how God knows what we can and cannot handle even when we think we can. He knows!
I just had to comment. Don't know if you remember me, Cat from iBlog. We STILL own our house in Birmingham and my husband just lost his job a few weeks ago....AGAIN. It's funny how God works. We may be moving back into our house in B-ham and he also just had a job interview! It would be a big jump in salary, too. But, the job may take us to Memphis instead. We're waiting. Nerve-racking not knowing. Trying to rest in Him above. Hope you and your precious family had a wonderful Christmas day! xoxo, cat
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